Overcoming my fears and learning to grow

I started reading The Mountain Is You by Brianna Wiest yesterday, and the opening really pulled me in. It’s simple enough to follow, but the first insight about self-sabotage hit hard. I had to stop reading and sit with it for a while. I found myself thinking about all the ways I’ve held myself back. There’s still a lot I don’t fully understand, but late last night, I tried to dig deeper—to look inward and face the fears that keep me stuck.

One thing that came up was my fear of failure, especially when it comes to finding something meaningful to do with my life. That fear goes back to childhood. I grew up being told to avoid becoming someone who “fails”—but what does failure even mean if you're happy with what you have? I realized that fear of failing is what stopped me from trying new things, and even when I did try, the fear would creep in so quickly that I’d abandon what I’d started.

I still have more to unpack, but I’m grateful to Brianna for putting things in such a clear way—it gave me a starting point to understand how I’ve been sabotaging myself, or at least to begin that process.

If you’ve read my previous writing, you’ll know I’m always searching for ways to express myself creatively. Writing has been my most consistent outlet—well, almost consistent—but I’ve also got a deep interest in videography, political science, society, economy, power... all of it. And now, I’m beginning a new chapter. Or maybe I’m restarting an old one—something I almost gave up on.

So here’s to understanding your fears—and trusting in new beginnings.